Dear God..

If You should judge me and strike me down during Judgement Day, then my life and experiences on earth would be meaningless, because all my life, all i lived was for You and to see Your will done on earth. God, if i had really went against a man of God, then i say You tear me apart, tear me into pieces and break me into bits, but God, just so you know, all i wanted to do, was to bring my family to church. Dear God, if people whom i respect and honor in church starts to see me differently, then i pray i will be like a worm in their eyes forever, for all i want to do, is the serve You all my days. One favour i need from You God, You let them know how much they’ve hurt me for believing what others have to say. 

i know it isn’t You who plunged the knife into my spirit.