so every year, i set aside three goals for myself. i completed one during the middle of the year. and i just finished another one yesterday.
honestly, i thought it was impossible. throughout my run/walk/stretches, i felt like it was impossible. sure, i wanted to give up. sure, i thought i was too weak to go on. but faith kept me alive. i finally realized that when you hit long distances,its your own race that you’re running. just keep on keeping on.
my first marathon. definitely not my last. pushing myself to the next level again come 2010!
this one’s dedicated to all those who believed in me.
i was watching VH1 last night and this MV appeared. very cool cover of a song.
anyways, india has been awesome. i’ve seen parts of india where it is indeed poor but i also see parts of india where skyscrapers fight to reach the sky. yes, there are certain rude people in india, but indians work diligently. my driver is the most patient man ever, if it were me driving in the streets of delhi, i think i would have already killed a few people.
really looking forward to the next couple of days. tomorrow, i’ll be hanging out with Jams. sunday, my cousin from canada would be flying here for a month.
can’t wait to fly back to singapore too. i’ve got this feeling that something great is going to happen. i know whats about to come, but i just cannot wait to announce to everyone. i’m still in talks with the people.
so, tim if you are reading this, tell me, when are you free for your birthday lunch/dinner with me?
i encountered a little incident today at sarojini. its this place where people sell clothes and stuff, a place more for commoners. well, there were still beautiful people there. i realized indians are not afraid to have their photos taken, they POSE for you. no kidding.
so anyway, i was about to climb into the car, this kid from behind screamed at me, i got startled and tried to make a hasty entry into the car. the kid caught up with me, said something i coudnt quite figure out and reached out for my chest. i was holding on to my D200 and a bottle of pepsi, he touched my camera, i thought he was about to snatch my D200 away from me. my hands were already drawn, about to knock the teeth out of the kid. then he grabbed my pepsi and ran off, feeling as if he found gold at the end of a rainbow.
naturally, i was pissed, how could he snatch my drink and run off. thoughts were running through my mind like a train speeding towards the next station (well, if its any train thats speeding, dont think of the MRT please, it demeans the word “speed”). but then i began to sympathize the kid, no one wants to start out begging on the street. and to have to snatch someone else’s bottle of pepsi to taste how is it like, its really quite heart wrenching. im always going to enjoy my coke next time, because people out there have not tasted how is it like.
it just makes me want to get better in my finances even quicker, i have this notion that money i earn is to be used for the less fortunate. let us bring the world closer… the how God intended it to be.
there was a period of time the radio kept airing this song. i got so tired of it, but i chanced upon this today and all i have to say is. M.J blige’s vocals are A W E S O M E. she reminds me of princess leia of star wars in this video though, i wonder why.
i think legends like U2 are always breaking barriers. MJ blige was always considered an r&b artiste and before they collaborated, there wasnt such thing as rock and R&B coming together. power.
i really have no idea what’s the title of this, so, here’s a random title.
friday night was fun. had the greatest time with Jamshed and his colleagues. his friends are the most fun people to be with. and very sweet and nice of them to compliment me, even though i think i’m far from what they say i am. i’ve got more to learn in life from people like them. the ride home however was a rather sombre one. i hope singaporeans in general will start looking into breaking cultural barriers with regards to their foreign counterparts. and not just accepting them into their social circle, i mean stepping into their lives too. say if your indian friend loves a local indian dish, try it together with him. singaporeans, speak in a language everyone understands when together. don’t just welcome the eurasians, get the room to cheer for the persian, the indian or the singhalese.
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i realized that God really is everywhere. His treasures are really hidden. even in daily life, in your routine, if you tuned your spiritual sensors up, you can see and hear and pick out the treasures of God.
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i feel like i’m entering an entire new season in my life. i hope its a good one.
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oh yes. keith chan was awesome today.
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here’s one, for those who want to give up in whatever they’re doing. this one’s for you jams.
no, its not a typo. go google Fenfedrin and you’ll figure out whats that.
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its really silly to be working on the days when you take your leave. its more like working at home. i’m really irritated with how the army’s milking me. people go on and say how much i am changing the army but so far, the army hasnt been changing me. well, it changed me at one point of time to sweat and spew vulgarities and i had to unchange that change. pfft.
if you guys think that i’ve changed a lot recently, its probably because of recent events (like being reprimanded by my one of my church leaders for using crude language) and daily prayer meetings/devotions with God that really spur me on. So, boys and girls, prayers do work. Sometimes you pray, and God throws a major curveball at you. One that you never expected to happen.
these couple of prayer meetings really taught me how to pray. Someone told me once that our prayers must be made up of a good mixture of thanksgiving, prayer requests and prayers for people. now i’m not saying there is a formula to it because when it comes to God, there is absolutely no formula. i’m just saying that most of us come into our prayer closet asking God for this and that and this and that. come on, God isnt some shopping centre selling blessings. Thanks Jams. and i hope you get out of your situation. thanks for being such a awesome friend by the way.
Things can be difficult to do, especially issues of the heart. i remembered once tim and i quarreled, i forgot for what silly reason (we never quarreled, NEVER. i think it was just that once.) and it was difficult to see him eye to eye and apologise to him for whatever silly thing i did. things didnt get better after that apology. there’s always an awkward moment at after that, but praise God we put aside our childish thoughts and moved along. my point is this, things always get awkward when someone takes the first step in whatever they do, be it an apology in a quarrel or something else. but we must be matured enough to understand that if we dont move on from the awkwardness, the entire thing will just be stuck there, stagnant. if tim hadnt forgiven me after that silly thing i did, he wouldnt have brought me to church, and i wouldnt have accepted Christ and the story would have ended 6 years ago. this is our 9th year as buddies (woah, dude, its 9 years! i bet during our 1st year, we were both ugly.).
sometimes, the most difficult thing to do is the right thing to do. i’d rather do something for you to hate me now for a period of time than do something for you to hate me forever.
thanks for the advice. you know who are are.
not really a fan of green day, but i’ve got to give them credit for this song. and the chick is cute. so, up points!
Do you know what’s worth fighting for
When it’s not worth dying for?
Does it take your breath away
And you feel yourself suffocating?
Does the pain weigh out the pride?
And you look for a place to hide?
Did someone break your heart inside?
You’re in ruins…
One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky
You and I
When you’re at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul
Your faith walks on broken glass
And the hangover doesn’t pass
Nothing’s ever built to last
You’re in ruins
One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky
You and I
Did you try to live on your own
When you burned down the house and home?
Did you stand too close to the fire?
Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone
When it’s time to live and let die
And you can’t get another try
Something inside this heart has died
You’re in ruins
One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up
i find it really weird that people want to be at the highest of the hills but they tend to forget that in order to scale up that hill, they need to really lower themselves and start from the bottom.
what use is it when someone start scaling a 10,000m hill at 9,999m?
if one cannot walk though the sudden gusts of wind when going uphill, what makes him sure he can withstand the high altitude, low oxygen and constant winds right above the top of the hill. the reason why God make us start from the very lowest level in whatever we do is because when we start climbing and start facing challenges, we can slowly get accustom to it and then continue scaling the hill.
the natural reaction for someone who encounters a challenge is to look for the easiest solution, like not coming for cell group meetings because there’s an awkward situation between him and his members (in any case, i think such people are childish).
my feathers are not ruffled by the way how people react because i do that sometimes too, and i know its how we are tuned. but our fleshy carnal nature wants to be at a comfortable position, therefore, we always find the easiest way out of a sticky solution. we go into hiding and not respond to the calls of others, thinking that by doing so, the problem will disappear. it wont. i call upon everyone of you to get up, take the right solution and not the easy way out.
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oh yes,
happy birthday to you. since its your birthday and you asked for it, here you go!
this video doesnt do justice to my blog. i blogged about this song before. therefore, my current muse.
dig this old song. mayer just blows your mind with his songs and skills. he is an ok singer, but coupled with his emotions and skills, POOOM.
is just awesome. you begin to walk in a whole new level, and you lean upon God’s strength. things you never imagined yourself doing, you actually start doing. you stop making up rude terms and you control your anger. you just become an angel. and yes, pastor does pray for our personal life too.
this year’s national day parade was amazing. ivan heng really brought it home with his directing skills. its really amazing what topics can the entire parade can bring. the men will definitely talk about their NS life and make fun of the NSFs. the women will just go “what in the world are they talking about? why they always talk about NS?” i think next year i should head on to jamshed wadia’s place and watch the parade (jams, i hope google informed you i blogged about you again.)
today is a very good sunday, towards the end of the day, i was super tired, my flesh, was ripped apart, but goodness, i’m glad i came for prayer meeting and served.
its really difficult praising and worshipping in chinese, as of now i only now how to sing one chinese worship song, but still its better than nothing. praise was horrendously difficult, by the time i made out the character, the guys were on to their last word of the line. so half the time, i was whistling. yes, go on guys, as i said, one day, i will speak in chinese and wow you guys. i guess God works in wondrous ways, although i couldnt really get 3/4 of what the guys were praying for, the other 1/4 was awesome. pastor was talking about how much evangelism should be part of a cell group’s lifestyle, because whenever there is a babe in Christ thats born integrated to the cell, the cell will be overjoyed and will stay united to bring the baby up. really true isnt it?
service was just phenomenal (boys and girls, please learn to use better english). i thank God for the very good/ultra awesome/super power/ the epitome of the best/wonderful/great leader of mine who put me at the front. oh man, after what happened today, i’m quite sure that its an honor/privilege to stand in front and worship together with the pastors. its really different. But God doesnt care if you’re standing way back in the balcony area, or way in front. He just comes.
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i find pastor kong’s message on postmodernism very powerful. in fact, i as an art student find it shocking that pastor’s facts on Dadaism and the history and principles of the postmodern era very accurate.
in any case, i would just like to share the following. again, the owner of 40stripesdotcom told me that once and i almost forgot about it until i got reprimanded by one of my security leaders, i shant mention who, but just know as much as i got reprimanded by him, as soon as i apologised, he told me he used to be like that until someone changed him, classical example of iron sharpens iron.
do you think Jesus used terms like “Wah lau” and such? i dont think Jesus used “wah lau, they crucified me”. neither did He damn the pharisees and scribes. He didnt call judas a bastard when he betrayed Him.
here’s my point. If Jesus didnt use such words, we shouldnt too. culture might influence us to use such words. some might call it slang, some might call it crude, whatever the case, i will encourage us not to use such language. do not use language that you wont use in front of your leaders, pastors or God.
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