so every year, i set aside three goals for myself. i completed one during the middle of the year. and i just finished another one yesterday.
honestly, i thought it was impossible. throughout my run/walk/stretches, i felt like it was impossible. sure, i wanted to give up. sure, i thought i was too weak to go on. but faith kept me alive. i finally realized that when you hit long distances,its your own race that you’re running. just keep on keeping on.
my first marathon. definitely not my last. pushing myself to the next level again come 2010!
this one’s dedicated to all those who believed in me.
i’m waiting for my parents to finish their yoga lesson before they bring me out for one last dinner around.
this trip has been an awesome one. i did a lot of firsts here in new delhi. it is the first time i met up with a friend overseas and he brought me around delhi. first time i met my cousin after a period of 8 years, she told me a lot about working abroad and life as an asian in canada. the grass always seems to be greener on the other side because you dont see the sad part of their story.
i think india is rising up and i hope they rise up. some singaporeans i met here told me something very negative about their opinion of india. they told me about the flaws of the way how indians work, and how they hope these people remain that way (indians take their time to do stuff), because if the indians rise up, they will overtake Singapore. its just typical singaporean mentality, the “dont steal my ricebowl mentality”. it disappoints me to see that even when one is given a chance to go abroad, he or she does not want to expand his horizons and break into the city’s social circle. i hope that sickening mentality ends at that generation. i hope my generation will want the world to develop into the next level.
i love india, the food. their curry is the best curry i have ever tried. i am not a curry person, or so i thought. in singapore, the curry is so spicy that it numbs your tongue. but the curry here, although its spicy, you can taste the flavour of the spices. the palek paneer is the sex, its a whole new way to make spinach. i love spinach now.
the people here are friendly, i see people driving beside me and they wave at me, smile at me. the people here should stop making eyes and winking at my cousin though. its rude and awkward. the waiters here provide such lovely service. they are proud of their service and i must say they put their heart and soul into everything they do. one such example is my driver. he’s patient when he drives around the busy streets and he is very polite. he still calls me “sir” even though i tell him to call me andy. i will miss him a lot.
well, now its back to singapore. there are several things waiting for me, but i am looking forward to two most important things. i look forward to seeing you!
i really have no idea what’s the title of this, so, here’s a random title.
friday night was fun. had the greatest time with Jamshed and his colleagues. his friends are the most fun people to be with. and very sweet and nice of them to compliment me, even though i think i’m far from what they say i am. i’ve got more to learn in life from people like them. the ride home however was a rather sombre one. i hope singaporeans in general will start looking into breaking cultural barriers with regards to their foreign counterparts. and not just accepting them into their social circle, i mean stepping into their lives too. say if your indian friend loves a local indian dish, try it together with him. singaporeans, speak in a language everyone understands when together. don’t just welcome the eurasians, get the room to cheer for the persian, the indian or the singhalese.
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i realized that God really is everywhere. His treasures are really hidden. even in daily life, in your routine, if you tuned your spiritual sensors up, you can see and hear and pick out the treasures of God.
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i feel like i’m entering an entire new season in my life. i hope its a good one.
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oh yes. keith chan was awesome today.
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here’s one, for those who want to give up in whatever they’re doing. this one’s for you jams.
i like it, its nice. slim. and business like. i can update my tweets, surf the net while waiting for people who are really late when it comes to meeting me, etc etc. just that the curve’s an older version, a tad slower and less stylish looking.
first it was twenty four. back then, “twenty four” seemed like an eternity.
the first of the twenty four was miserable. but, i forged friendships. through these friendships, i learnt what selflessness was. when people brought back stolen food items. life was miserable, but i was in a company of people who taught me what the lighter side of life was. life was miserable, but thank God for the angel who was by my side. yea, the angel was imperfect, but through the imperfections, the angel was made perfect.
twenty four quickly turned twenty one. we parted ways, we went to different places. and misery started to mutate itself.
misery struck right after christmas that year. i came into this place with a heavy duffel bag and an even heavier heart. i endured misery for all the wrong reasons, i wanted to prove people wrong. but, i gave up, and i quit.
i felt like i lost the battle. the battle of proving people wrong. perhaps they were right about me.
i was alive, but my heart was likened to a lifeless fish. it was eighteen.
i got transferred to heaven. Heaven rocked. the people were great. i made mistakes, but i didnt get punished. heaven was awesome. i had the greatest time of my life in heaven.
then, news came, i was to go back down to earth again, with a heavy heart and a box of farewell chocolates, i left heaven. i came to earth, with a heart full of disbelief. but i impressed people. particularly this person. this person respected my views, even though i was much lower in status than he was. soon, he got left for a different land, while i stayed on. He got me staying on.
now i’m left with five. how will this five unfold? i don’t know. but i know, i’ve done my bestest in these nineteen. this five, is time for me to unwind.
its the final countdown to the weekend. FRIDAY ROCKS.
Kerrie: i know how much you just love it when i randomly send you youtube links. but please! this is a legendary video!
tim: please convince kerrie youtube is the best invention ever in the history of the world.
Keith chan: i’m sure you agree with my sentiments.
Jamshed wadia (i’m typing your full name because google will notify you): I’m sure you can connect with this song! LOVELY song!
Kristy: enjoy! but if it exceeds your download limit, dont watch. its worth it though.
Jiayu: this legendary song… is better than some jonas brothers crap. agree?
he don’t read blogs. but dude, if you are, great job on the celebration. hope you like the gift tim and i gave you. knowing you for the past 6 years is awesome. yes, you are secretive but also a very devoted guy. happy 21st boy.
i spoke to poh about what i encountered yesterday. he told me its very normal for most guitarist to make that mistake and corrected me on the spot. he also told me he was glad i raised the issue. i love my teacher.
what if something happened to you and you just know its not you. yet, you like the feeling. what would you do?
i’ve been in such a state for the past few days. i realize thats severing your flesh its literally impossible. because your flesh enjoys it the feeling. its natural but i need to live by a different set of values. i don’t live by natural instincts. i live by supernatural instincts. damn the temptations of life.
i wonder if God is tired of me asking Him to draw nearer to me. all my close friends are happy. i’m happy for them but i think i can’t find the strength to give myself some.
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