alright, an update of my happenings around this jan. man, january has been a real fast paced month. good month. i like this pace.
i’ve been screwed by my director once. but it woke me up. and im glad it did.
i cant really say what projects ive been working on, but they’re pretty fun projects. its really when you get thrown into the deep and when the dateline is really tight (like, end of the day tight), you start to push yourself to the limit where you previously never knew existed. its tiring, but what you learnt will not be stored inside your “short term memory” folder.
i started giving guitar lessons and my students are awesome. i dont know if they will read this or not, but if they are, i am proud of them for learning well and having a positive attitude towards learning. dont despise what you know now. you will get there some day. just make sure your “there” is somewhere good.
also, i’ve been contacting Poh a lot, he really inspires me. what he says drives me not only to teach my class better, but also teaches me to edify people around me. seriously, this world needs that. there’s so much negativity in this world that people dont see the need to spread love around. what gives people. spread the love man! we can be fun and crazy and joke around, but there is a limit to it.
all in all, january rocks. 2010 is a fast paced year. i will get there. i will breakthrough in areas of my life i never thought will. looking forward to a febuary of awesomeness.
if i can leave you with something i learnt in january 2010, i’d say never think you’re too incompetent to do something. never think youre too lousy. never think youre too smart, because we learn something new everyday. i get afraid of the day when i wake up one day and dont have anything in mind of what to do. be it practicing on my guit or reading up on my books (people have been giving me books of late. starting to pick up the habit again) or getting in touch with design, i just dont want to be the same from where i was yesterday.
well, good bye 2009. hello 2010.
2009 has been a rather awesome year, yea, bumps here and there. but i’m glad its been a hell of a journey. Every year, i set myself three major goals to fulfill. i shall touch on these below.
i finished my service to the nation this year. i thank all who has served with me throughout my service in N.S. they have made it an experience. the one thing i really can never expect is that i’d be working alongside my APC when i was in OCS. i thank Verdy for giving me a chance to work with him. i must admit that it was quite terrifying to even imagine working under someone who made you leopard crawl to the low wall at 3am in the middle of the night with thunderflashes and smoke grenades being thrown around you. but things worked out fine. i must say i am having a lot of fun working with him and more importantly, i am learning a lot from the company and him. i can see his vision for the company, and i want to carry his vision. his vision is my vision. let’s bring this company to where we want it to be.
i spent a month in India. it was sort of a getaway trip for me after my national service. i was looking forward to it cause i could see my cousin whom i havent seen in a long while. try, 10 odd years. we had fun in india. i learnt a lot in india, and took back the good parts of the culture from india to singapore. i approach people who look lost now, and give them directions and help them. thats what they do in india. i chilled out with jamshed wadia in india. chilling with him in india is really different from chilling with him in singapore. its like, in singapore, its my home. in india, its his place, his turf. you could see a different kind of spark in his eyes. i view india as my 2nd home now. nevermind the jams, and the dirt, the rampant peeing. they’ve got good food. thy’ve got nice people. if ever i become uncontactable one day, try india.
i took up my guit teacher’s challenge to to something great. and i pieced up a gig together with a canadian friend of mine. we nailed, some, we missed some. but we tried. i thank all who came down to support me and see me achieve one of my big goals of the year. 2010 is going to be a another year to do something great. i know what i want to do already, but i won’t tell you yet. i love you guys.
2009 was the year i did my first marathon. i pushed myself to the limits, i wasnt proud of my time (thats why i dont wear the finisher tee. thats why i dont wear the singlet.) but i was happy i pushed myself to the limits. i thank Timothy, Jacky and Keith for being there with me. to the K.L chc girls who congratulated me after my run. you girls are sweet. and to kristy too!
those were some of the interesting things in my life of this year.
now, to make amendments to those i hurt.
im sorry for all the hurt i’ve caused. i never meant to do it although i had to. we need to do drastic things to make things right. you take the simple way out, things will be difficult. you take the difficult way out, things will eventually become simple. if i caused a you to tear, i probably would, in john mayer’s words, pour tears into your drying eyes. im sorry.
here’s a personal note to all who have in some way of another made an impact in my life this year.
Tim – dude, this year, will be our tenth year as buddies. i think the fried rice nonsense, the fire incident, it will all keep surfacing once in a while, and will definitely come up again at our weddings. the first ten years was crazy shit. we still get each other’s jokes and only laugh at our own stupid stuff.i’m glad i’ve got you as a buddy. although you like to talk a lot about your stuff. and you used to not give an opinion about my problems (but you’re changing! really. you start telling me your views on the opposite gender and i totally feel you on that!) you’ve got me as a friend.
Keith chan- dude, you’re one of the sweetest , most tolerant (haha!) boyfriend ever. just keep on keeping on in your studies and you will see where you’re headed. im sure your career will turn out awesome. thanks for being the gentleman. always.
Keith he – oh wait, you dont read blogs. haha. in any case, if you stumble upon this. STOP BEING HYPCRITICAL. whenever i ask for your opinion, its like, up to you, and when i do it, you scream at me. “WHAT THE HELL WERE YOU THINKING?!” for real, bro?
Jamshed Wadia (im full naming you cause google will inform you. i remember!) – we seldom talk/hangout, but i still regard you as my friend, my close friend. i know that whenever i have got a problem, i can approach you. and i will approach you. i regard your opinion highly. everytime i see you, i smile, because i know you wont judge me because of what i have done. i’ve got a friend in you.
Verdy – thanks for giving me a chance to work with you. i really learnt a lot. i want to grow in design in the company, and carry the vision of the agency. and im glad i’ve got you to mentor me with my journey here. and yes! we got really screwed up thinking and funny nonsense ideas. we cannot run for presidency because the world will be more screwed up than what it already is. we must do what we must, to the ends of the earth, across the universe!
Matthew – how can i talk about one of my director and not talk about my other director. how can i not thank him who feeds me? thanks for giving me a chance to be part of the team. i really believe if we work our ass off, we can get to where we want to go. and i am happy to be working under you. just for you today, Liverpool rocks.
Ah Yong – ahyongyongyong. im glad we trashed things out yesterday. im beginning to see that you really have changed. i hope things between us are like that forever, got any problems, we trash out. we talk, like guys. Arsenal FOR THE WIN.
Jiayu – thanks for everything. you know me really well huh. people are surprised when they ask me about my schedule and i direct them to you instead. thanks for listening. i hope things will work out between joseph and you!
Kristy – my sweetest friend! you arent afraid to tell me i am wrong. and it pisses me that you dont get my point, but when you reiterate your point to me, my point doesnt really matters anymore. stay rock and cool. and hey, pow and you… it will work out. just chill and dont put pressure on yourself.
Jiaying – i know you will be reading this. and if you dont see your name, the princess will complain. so. hey princess. learn to make milo at least la. if not next time your child want to make milo. how?! get your doctor boyfriend to make huh?!
RYAN WRONG AND VALERIE RIIYON – BRO! SMLJ!! yes, you’re damn vulgar and always always always trying to make a fool out of me. but i know beneath that clown, is a boyfriend to his devoted to his girlfriend. beneath the “SIOLA, THAT GIRL HOT SIAL. CAN TOUCH NO NEED TO PAY MONEY ONE” is a guy who would protect the integrity of his friends. thats what a brother is. and HEY SISTER, you gonna do great things for design. just chill and do what you do now. you’re already good. dont pressure yourself ok. sisterhooooood yo! MAN UTD CITY POWER!
Luke – hey dude, im glad we gayed out last night. i am glad you and the Wrong are my friends i made in N.S. lets just keep on keeping on. if you need a helping hand. i’ll pull you up. i’ll be there. lets just walk.
to the rest of my friends out there: there are so many of you i want to thank.
to david, for teaching me all that i have to learn in logistics. i salute your dedication to Team D.
To adrian, thanks for the nonsense every week!
to adelinnnnnnnnnneeeeeee, $@#$$$^^Y^@@%%^&^&&##&$%$#&%$@@$^^@$$^@&@@&$$@%@%$@$%%&%&$%@$%$%&$$#@#$@#. decipher that! i think you’re a lovely girl.
to jacky, LSKLSKLSKLSK <-lau sai kia. :/
so before i i end this post, to all my friends and loved ones, this one IS for you.
so every year, i set aside three goals for myself. i completed one during the middle of the year. and i just finished another one yesterday.
honestly, i thought it was impossible. throughout my run/walk/stretches, i felt like it was impossible. sure, i wanted to give up. sure, i thought i was too weak to go on. but faith kept me alive. i finally realized that when you hit long distances,its your own race that you’re running. just keep on keeping on.
my first marathon. definitely not my last. pushing myself to the next level again come 2010!
this one’s dedicated to all those who believed in me.
i reallly wasnt into him until only recently.
jams was driving me back and his stereo started playing this song. i guess he does have very good songs on falling in and out of love. hey! dont ask if i know what he’s singing about. i am chinese. i can make out at least 50% to 60% of it. tsk. besides, the music arrangement is really good. emo jay songs FTW. AND, his videos usually have got eye candy in them. ok, maybe just one video.
anyways, works cool. people are nice. clients, well, its areally an experience working with different clients. its funny how people work. i think im beginning to understand the meaning of what is it like to cannot wait to go to work. david ogilvy once said, “pay your workers well, you will reap your benefits” i totally agree.
on a more serious and spiritual note, poh told us something really cool during lessons. he mentioned about musicians being too familiar with songs that they take it for granted, which actually gives God to ground to work through them during P&W and if God doesnt flow through them during P&W, how then is the congregation going to experience the presence of God. there always will be something special happening even though we keep singing the same songs. its just whether you want to let go and let God or not.
i find it really weird that people want to be at the highest of the hills but they tend to forget that in order to scale up that hill, they need to really lower themselves and start from the bottom.
what use is it when someone start scaling a 10,000m hill at 9,999m?
if one cannot walk though the sudden gusts of wind when going uphill, what makes him sure he can withstand the high altitude, low oxygen and constant winds right above the top of the hill. the reason why God make us start from the very lowest level in whatever we do is because when we start climbing and start facing challenges, we can slowly get accustom to it and then continue scaling the hill.
the natural reaction for someone who encounters a challenge is to look for the easiest solution, like not coming for cell group meetings because there’s an awkward situation between him and his members (in any case, i think such people are childish).
my feathers are not ruffled by the way how people react because i do that sometimes too, and i know its how we are tuned. but our fleshy carnal nature wants to be at a comfortable position, therefore, we always find the easiest way out of a sticky solution. we go into hiding and not respond to the calls of others, thinking that by doing so, the problem will disappear. it wont. i call upon everyone of you to get up, take the right solution and not the easy way out.
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oh yes,
happy birthday to you. since its your birthday and you asked for it, here you go!
this video doesnt do justice to my blog. i blogged about this song before. therefore, my current muse.
dig this old song. mayer just blows your mind with his songs and skills. he is an ok singer, but coupled with his emotions and skills, POOOM.
17 days to the big day.
5 days to getting my curve (so my personal assistant wont have to work tirelessly anymore.)
3 days to my brother’s graduation ceremony. (think we’ll go celebrate after that!)
1 day to another working day.
i like it, its nice. slim. and business like. i can update my tweets, surf the net while waiting for people who are really late when it comes to meeting me, etc etc. just that the curve’s an older version, a tad slower and less stylish looking.
“..Jabez probably had to struggle with being unwanted and unloved. He must have suffered rejection as a child and that would probably have been a big handicap in his life. But Jabez’s faith was stronger than his handicap. So instead of being a cause of pain to others, he rose up and laid hold of God in faith to become a great man of God…” -Pastor Kong.
i must remember who i am. i must remember who my God is. i must remember what my God.
its really awesome how God can, through a man of God, inspire you to complete things you told yourself you’d do but never ever had the drive to do it. you did it before, but you couldn’t because your situation seems like an uphill battle. but this drive causes you to give up some of the things you really want (read previous post, i really really really want that).
i might not even be able to complete what i want to do. but i want to try. lots of sacrifices. i’ve completed it a few times before. but while i see others reaping their rewards, i didnt see mine. maybe its really time to get violent and angry. but even then, i don’t know if it will work. i dont want to lose hope, faith and love.
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happy birthday kristy ng shiyun! dammit. you’re 22. older than me now. happy studying in australia. quick come back. so i can randomly call you to irritate the heck out of you again and go out and do random stuff like watching boring movies like australia.
okok, next time, we will decide on a movie we both want to watch. okay? haha. i hope the little gift i sent a few months back was a nice expected surprise.
okay, here’s wishing you in the best of your studies. and finding an awesome church there. and perhaps an awesome boyfriend!
i want a cream white telecaster soon. say next year?
i want my um-1. pleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleaseplease
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and to kristy too!
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