i was channel surfing as usual. and i chanced upon a reality programme produced by channel 8. its about real people, real ex-convicts who don’t even have money to take the daily bus rides to see a very sick mother in hospital. (i think channel 8 has outdone themselves this time. finally a good piece of show, but its always the post production that brings the quality down. anyways, another story for another day) it kinda moves me to think of something to do to change their lives. i don’t want to stop at the “let’s pray for them and get on with our lives” stage. its rather absurd, if prayers were that simple tasks to perform, Jesus needn’t come down from heaven (don’t get me wrong, i still believe in prayer). Jesus was nailed to two pieces of wood, how else more do we have to “get our hands dirty”. i think its not always about how we can change entire families, how much money we can give to them and all that. we can give them all the money in the world, but if their mentality doesn’t change, the people will still think they are lousy.
i say we all have a chance to heal a hurt at any point of our life. we see friends hurt by other friends and its up to us to decide whether we want to be like the rest and start taking sides or, take a step back and patch things up. yes, some things are better left the way the are, but not everything are supposed to be left the way they are. as long as there is a glimmer of hope, i’d still fight to keep my friends’ relationship alive. just don’t give up on Jesus yet.
yup, i may do really dumb stuff, but when the time comes for it, the dumbest stuff i will do is to stand up for righteousness and for hopes of a better life, for my friends.
i’m not jealous anymore. =)
tomorrow’s friday. my flesh’s screaming for this day to come but my spirit’s just looking forward to saturday to plug into the house of God again. i don’t know if i’ll ever see you in expo or even bump into your parents. even if i do, a weary smile and a quiet answer is what they’ll get.
A very good friend of mine called me up today and asked me to help him. i only knew him for like what, 15 weeks, but i can tell you every bit about him. and i’m really glad i made a friend like him. anyways, he’s been in a shitty situation and i tried to help but i couldn’t. i’ve let him down. sigh. i just don’t know how to break the news to him.
this week’s just so.. draining. i chose to draw my strength from God, and continue moving on. but its just so difficult to. its lie an iron ball chained to your feet and you drag your feet to work. i thank God for my colleagues who really make the working environment fun, i’d just die. And it seems that everyone’s out to get me for minor minor issues. Issues that never happened to me before just hit me like a pile of bricks.
i need the weekend to recharge.
Dear God,
i really need you to help me move on. please God. Let this be an opportunity for me to move on higher with You. i refuse to look at my circumstance and whine and i’m going to look to You. i throw all the little faith i have into Your hands. create a miracle that overflows into my flow. Just like how Jesus turned water into the finest of wines and made abundance out of it.
Love,
Andy
“Lieutenant colonel Autistic.”
we found a number of stray pins lying around the office, so we pinned it up on the epaulettes of my goretex jacket. currently, i’ve got one adidas badge pin below a “help an autistic child” badge pin while the chest has a black knight pin. later in the afternoon, DY commander stepped in and saw me in my goretex jacket and just smiled. he saw my designs for some coming brochure and he only gave me one comment. “excellent. excellent”. while i had to do major revamps for the other brochure the previous guy did. i really think God’s great. choosing to work in someone who majors in stumbles and falls.
Miss Chia
finally got to know what is is about. so .. shhh.. wink wink! anyway, chia does great cell meetings. we did something hands on today and i realize i spend quite a substantial amt of time with God, but i want to increase the time, and the time with my family.
Saturday!
its tomorrow/today. all week long, i’ve been waiting for tomorrow/today, but, after what you said last night, i don’t know if i should ask you again. i promised your mum, but i don’t know how am i going to react when i see you.
Random
dad was on skype today and told us he gotten a new clock. i asked him is it a sundial that’s lifetime warranty. (haha. yea, i know.) i ate strawberries today. the best fruits i tried were the blackcurrents from australia. get me those and i’ll uh… do something silly yet decent enough.
Dear God
” i know You know who i’m talking about. as class95 plays ” i’ll never fall in love again”, i just pray that that doesnt happen to him. i know You are always in every situation. Be there for him. salvage the situation. i pray that confusion would not overwhelm the both of them and let peace of God come upon the situation. God, give her understanding to understand how much he’s been through and give him the wisdom to pacify her and make her feel more than a million dollars give him the favour of God to woo her once again i pray. i believe that even though we come from different church, we still serve one god, who loves us as who we are.”
sigh, sometimes i dun feel qualified to pray for such prayers because i myself is in some sh*tty position. but i refuse to believe the flesh and just pray for this friend/buddy of mine. perfect love cast out all fears. (something along these lines i think.)
Update: See, God really works!
my mum asked me to try for an air steward. i think she’s crazy. but i don’t have a filter, so i thought about it the entire night. and went to check them out.
Training
Our comprehensive 4 months training program will cover topics such as:
On successful completion of training you will commence flying duties.
sounds interesting! but whoever has seen an air steward who rocks and jumps around?! and what about my design dream? what about my plans? okay, i think its time to pray.
on a more solemn note, i woke up to a rather sad morning after reading the headlines. a woman got hit by a taxi and her husband could not come to terms with it. he bit his tongue and asked the cop to hand him a gun to kill himself (its rather hilarious, that part, because, whichever cop that hands him over his gun, should shoot himself after that man shoots himself.) i guess thats how different people deal with a sudden catastrophe. “dear God, i pray you be with the man throughout this period of time, comfort him and let him feel Your love”
while i’m at it…
“Dear Heavenly Father, i pray for ah Lum right now. be with him and assure him that he can go through the rigorous training. i pray that no matter how busy he is, how tired he is, he will always remember that You are Someone whom he can draw strength from. i pray for his relationship with kerrie, even though they don’t see each other most of the time, i pray their relationship will maintain strong and their love for each other will grow deeper and stronger everyday of their lives. let them lead pure lives unto you i pray. God, empower ah Lum to be like daniel, who mingled around the babylonians but still set apart himself for You. Amen.”
and since i’m at the subject of OCS,
“God, i pray for LT Verdy right now. Empower him i pray, let him shine in his marketplace, anoint him to be the salt and light of our camp. God, even as he holds prayer meetings leads the men, you begin to give him a double portion of Your anointing to lead the men with Godly wisdom, Let him lead by the Spirit. Father, empower Verdy to be Spiritually natural and naturally spiritual. Father, i ask You to take away any tiredness he has and renew it with a supernatural cup of energy, let him draw his strength from You i pray. God, i love this commander of mine, he’s more than a commander, more than a friend, let Your hand be upon him and protect him from any harm, let no weapon of evil be form against him i pray, and even if they do, let it not prosper i pray. “
okay, to end of on a lighter note-
JANGAN CATASTROPHE
Where a Mat Roker might ask one to “jangan tension”, the Cambridge-educated metropolitan Malay of today would use this phrase to calm you down.
See also: Mat Jangan Tension Relac Maintain Balan.
JANGAN TENSION
A Mat-ism, it is an exhortation to keep one’s cool.
See also: Relac Jangan Catastrophe Maintain Balan Mat.
i made a new friend today and her name’s Joey!
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